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I know what it's like to be single. I was in a rocky relationship for 6 years. For the most part, it was pretty OK. Don't let it get you down. Someone once told me that if you're looking, you probably won't find someone. It's when you're not looking that you find someone.

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I feel like I have a million things stuffed into my head, and it's overwhelming...guilt, loneliness, nostalgia, and some other stuff, and I don't know why... I couldn't sleep last night so I stayed up, and guess what i was thinking of? The direction that my life is going.

And it feels like it's heading nowhere. I'm broke and single, but I understand the brokeness. I'm a spender, not a saver, and I lose a lot of my money. ^_^ But as for being single...what is it that draws people away from me? I thought that maybe it was because I'm sort of an geek-ish outcast at school, and that I'm a bit unreliable and forgetful. For a while I thought it had something to do with my appearance. But actually, I think it may be more of a self-confidence matter. Guys probably like girls who are confident, and I fail in that area of life... -_-

Ugh, and I don't think I have any real best friends. Yeah, maybe a few "friends" but nobody that's particularly close.

I didn't feel like talking to anyone, and my dad accused me of being anti-social. Well, maybe I don't want to blab about everything, you know? I felt extremely crappy and I didn't need anybody bothering me.

Also, there's this one person...I won't say who, but we were playing Crazy Eights (it's a card game) and they just sort of offhandedly insulted me. I was extremely offended, but they didn't notice. I just hate that, when somebody says something and they don't know how much it hurts. If I'm going to say something stupid then I won't say anything at all.

Things just suck right now. God, how I hate this!

I'm so sorry to hear that...I know what you're going through, I've been there myself (still there)

I know what it's like to be single. I was in a rocky relationship for 6 years. For the most part, it was pretty OK. Don't let it get you down. Someone once told me that if you're looking, you probably won't find someone. It's when you're not looking that you find someone.

I hear ya', Catwings30, and Sideways....

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I feel like I have a million things stuffed into my head, and it's overwhelming...guilt, loneliness, nostalgia, and some other stuff, and I don't know why... I couldn't sleep last night so I stayed up, and guess what i was thinking of? The direction that my life is going.

And it feels like it's heading nowhere. I'm broke and single, but I understand the brokeness. I'm a spender, not a saver, and I lose a lot of my money. ^_^ But as for being single...what is it that draws people away from me? I thought that maybe it was because I'm sort of an geek-ish outcast at school, and that I'm a bit unreliable and forgetful. For a while I thought it had something to do with my appearance. But actually, I think it may be more of a self-confidence matter. Guys probably like girls who are confident, and I fail in that area of life... -_-

Ugh, and I don't think I have any real best friends. Yeah, maybe a few "friends" but nobody that's particularly close.

I didn't feel like talking to anyone, and my dad accused me of being anti-social. Well, maybe I don't want to blab about everything, you know? I felt extremely crappy and I didn't need anybody bothering me.

Also, there's this one person...I won't say who, but we were playing Crazy Eights (it's a card game) and they just sort of offhandedly insulted me. I was extremely offended, but they didn't notice. I just hate that, when somebody says something and they don't know how much it hurts. If I'm going to say something stupid then I won't say anything at all.

Things just suck right now. God, how I hate this!

You know what Catwings? I feel exactly the same way. I stay up at night sometimes wondering the exact same thing, all I can wonder is what am I doing with my life. I spend too much too fast, I've NEVER been in a relationship. I usually feel sad all the time, always looking back to the past wondering what could have been or wishing I was younger again. I feel alone, even with my friends. I think I only have two true friends, my cousin and my best friend Nathan, everyone else I don't feel connected to, especially the girls. People usually take potshots at me, especially about me liking Star Fox so much, at points when its just uncalled for. I only hang out with most people so I can just feel a semblance of being normal.

And that comment about guys wanting confident girls, its the exact same thing on this side of the playing field, we think girls want guys that are confident, and I lack confidence. I always second guess myself, and I think that a girl will never fall for a guy like me, a Nintendo-obsessed furry.

Though I don't think my life is a carbon copy of yours, I would have to say its pretty damn close. So I do mean it when I say I know how you feel, I'm going down the same road.

Some bad news for me, I scraped the crap out of the drivers side of my dad's truck, and put a huge dent in it, not to mention causing some damage to the garage door frame.

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I was coming into the garage, I was at an odd angle, so I was gonna back up so I could get in, but I didn't shift into reverse like I thought I did, and the gas pedal sticks so I start flying toward my mom's car in the garage, so I veer left and smashed the side of the truck into the garage door frame causing the accident. It wasn't that bad and is actually easily fixable seeing how the paint wasn't torn off, but because I was in shock because of the noise made by the truck and the fact that it was my dad's truck made it look worse in my mind. So I was up half the night convulsing and thrashing about in my bed, the image of the truck and the scraping noise playing over and over again in my mind. What made it worse because was it had been a perfect day up until that point.

But my cousin lent me a buffer and some scratch restorer, and is going to help me get the dent out, so I'm basically saved from making my insurance spike up. I'm lucky that the scratches are just paint stuck to the metal, and not scratches.

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DAAAAAMN, Star Fox Runner!  ^_^

Reminds me of when I ****ed my parent's car...my dad was pissed....glad you could get yours more easily repaired.....

it cost us over $300...*sighs*, that was about 5 years ago

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I went to my graduation ceremony last night. No fun at all. It was long, hot, and I had sensory issues, again! Furthermore I still don't like school.

I'm also kinda sad that Michael Jackson died last night. ^_^

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Aw, Star Fox Runner...you're absolutely right. I feel the same way.

The only person that I'm particularly close to is my sister. Not even my parents understand, and I'm not sure they ever will.

Starfox-Online seems to be the only place where I feel decent. I have the same interests as most on here, and I don't feel left out. I don't truly feel at home anywhere else other than here, because I actually do have friends on this site...I guess that makes me more pathetic in some ways.

And about your dad's car, wow! That's terrible-I hope you can get it fixed soon!

By the way, my birthday is on July 3rd (I accidentally said 4th on twisted wishes) , but I'll be in New York. It's only for about 3-4 days, though, and I won't be able to use the computer. I won't get presents or a party either, but then again, I don't really want a party....just another year older...anyway, I've asked my friends to donate to the Big Cat Society instead of getting me something. (Even though I've wanted some things for years, it just doesn't seem right in this type of economical crisis.).

At least you're close to your sister, I can't get along with my brothers whatsoever.

And your not pathetic for having friends here on SF-O, just think that there are people that don't have any friends, on or off the internet. I consider you a friend.

Happy early birthday.

About the truck, if you thought that was bad, you should see what I did to the garage door frame!

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I feel like I have a million things stuffed into my head, and it's overwhelming...guilt, loneliness, nostalgia, and some other stuff, and I don't know why... I couldn't sleep last night so I stayed up, and guess what i was thinking of? The direction that my life is going.

And it feels like it's heading nowhere. I'm broke and single, but I understand the brokeness. I'm a spender, not a saver, and I lose a lot of my money. :wink: But as for being single...what is it that draws people away from me? I thought that maybe it was because I'm sort of an geek-ish outcast at school, and that I'm a bit unreliable and forgetful. For a while I thought it had something to do with my appearance. But actually, I think it may be more of a self-confidence matter. Guys probably like girls who are confident, and I fail in that area of life... -_-

Ugh, and I don't think I have any real best friends. Yeah, maybe a few "friends" but nobody that's particularly close.

I didn't feel like talking to anyone, and my dad accused me of being anti-social. Well, maybe I don't want to blab about everything, you know? I felt extremely crappy and I didn't need anybody bothering me.

Also, there's this one person...I won't say who, but we were playing Crazy Eights (it's a card game) and they just sort of offhandedly insulted me. I was extremely offended, but they didn't notice. I just hate that, when somebody says something and they don't know how much it hurts. If I'm going to say something stupid then I won't say anything at all.

Things just suck right now. God, how I hate this!

I wish i could be there for you Catwings. hold on...
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At least you're close to your sister, I can't get along with my brothers whatsoever.

And your not pathetic for having friends here on SF-O, just think that there are people that don't have any friends, on or off the internet. I consider you a friend.

Happy early birthday.

About the truck, if you thought that was bad, you should see what I did to the garage door frame!

I wish i could be there for you Catwings. hold on...

I agree with Star Fox Runner, and Kursed, catwings...

I consider you my friend, catwings30...and you're NOT pathetic, you'd be surprised how your average American nowadays have few friends (look at So.Cal, we're declared the most standoffish people in ALL the world...)

hang in there, Kursed is right...and Happy [Early] Birthday!

Behind every dark cloud lies...an even darker cloud! (j/k) -_- it's actually "....a silver lining"

damn, SF-Runner, you really totaled that frame, huh? sorry to see that  :wink:

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The only person that I'm particularly close to is my sister. Not even my parents understand, and I'm not sure they ever will.

Starfox-Online seems to be the only place where I feel decent. I have the same interests as most on here, and I don't feel left out. I don't truly feel at home anywhere else other than here, because I actually do have friends on this site...I guess that makes me more pathetic in some ways.

I really feel sorry for you. You have nothing to be ashamed of, feeling at home on this site is not in any way pathetic!

I have not had the pleasure of knowing you for long. But from what I've seen, you're a nice, caring person with a great artistic talent.

In my book, that makes you stand out from the crowd in a positive way.

That probably didn't help much, I'm really not good with social stuff. I'm probably the only ecception to the rule that a human needs love and a social life to survive, I just prefer it to living without it.

Some bad news for me, I scraped the crap out of the drivers side of my dad's truck, and put a huge dent in it, not to mention causing some damage to the garage door frame.

I was coming into the garage, I was at an odd angle, so I was gonna back up so I could get in, but I didn't shift into reverse like I thought I did, and the gas pedal sticks so I start flying toward my mom's car in the garage, so I veer left and smashed the side of the truck into the garage door frame causing the accident. It wasn't that bad and is actually easily fixable seeing how the paint wasn't torn off, but because I was in shock because of the noise made by the truck and the fact that it was my dad's truck made it look worse in my mind. So I was up half the night convulsing and thrashing about in my bed, the image of the truck and the scraping noise playing over and over again in my mind. What made it worse because was it had been a perfect day up until that point.

But my cousin lent me a buffer and some scratch restorer, and is going to help me get the dent out, so I'm basically saved from making my insurance spike up. I'm lucky that the scratches are just paint stuck to the metal, and not scratches.

Ouch, bad luck with that one. I hope it makes you feel better when I say that I've had my fair share of "accidents".

Such as borrowing my dad's truck and taking it into the woods to do some offroading, got a couple of good bumps there.

I've also nearly had an accident when I bought my own car. Was about to park it into the garage, came in with good speed, but the brakes are in desperate need for an overhaul, and I managed to stop with only a couple of centimetres to spare. If I had hit the wall, the fiberglass on the whole front whould have cracked and cost me about 5000 $... Got to fix those brakes...

About myself

I'm back from the army tryouts. I passed every single test and they were so impressed by me that they offered me a place at the officer school. In two years time, I would have been a sergant. Sergant ... That sounds relly nice.

But I said no thanks and left. I came back home late last night.

The reason why I passed the opportunity was because that I feelt that I wasn't entirely ready for this yet. That going into the army at such a young age, to be there for four years, was a thing I could't do right away.

It would also give me even less time to continue my writing and spending time with you.

I hope I did the right choice, and maybe I will give it a go next year if I feel ready for it.

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PAthetic? I think not  You just have Diffrent intrest Catwings if you need anything or just want to talk look me up I will try to help the best I can.

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All I can say is: "Who needs friends when you still got your sanity- Ooops, Not anymore..."

J/K, Hope things work out for you, there's plenty of tough things going on, just hang in there and you'll get through it. Just remember the good times, leave behind the bad times. That's all I can say!

As for me, since I've moved cross-state, I'd say I'm happier than I always am. We are in a larger town so the "small town" ignorances don't apply here, people are more open and for the first time I feel a little more social.

Other than that, I'm bored most of my days.

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I've been using the library computer for some time now (the family computer in the den at my house is having some problems, and I don't own my own computer)...I technically shouldn't be in the computer lab here, BUT...

I donate my time, and when I have it, money, to the library, and the last time I did community service here at the library, they entrusted me with the keys, and I copied those keys, on my break while volunteering here, and then kept my copies of the keys...I also know the burglar alarm codes, so no false alarms  :wink:

I can avoid the security cameras, and use the computer lab...they suspected I've been doing this, but they look the other way 'cause of my service and donations to this library...plus, I don't make a mess or party in here, or steal/trash stuff...and I always lock up when done.

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I can avoid the security cameras, and use the computer lab...they suspected I've been doing this, but they look the other way 'cause of my service and donations to this library...plus, I don't make a mess or party in here, or steal/trash stuff...and I always lock up when done.

that's good enough for me!

but i've been in a pretty crumby mood latley :oops:

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the last time I did community service here at the library, they entrusted me with the keys, and I copied those keys, on my break while volunteering here, and then kept my copies of the keys...I also know the burglar alarm codes, so no false alarms  :D

I can avoid the security cameras, and use the computer lab...they suspected I've been doing this, but they look the other way 'cause of my service and donations to this library...plus, I don't make a mess or party in here, or steal/trash stuff...and I always lock up when done.

WOW. I used to rush to libraries for computers, but damn.... XD

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I've been using the library computer for some time now (the family computer in the den at my house is having some problems, and I don't own my own computer)...I technically shouldn't be in the computer lab here, BUT...

I donate my time, and when I have it, money, to the library, and the last time I did community service here at the library, they entrusted me with the keys, and I copied those keys, on my break while volunteering here, and then kept my copies of the keys...I also know the burglar alarm codes, so no false alarms  :leon:

I can avoid the security cameras, and use the computer lab...they suspected I've been doing this, but they look the other way 'cause of my service and donations to this library...plus, I don't make a mess or party in here, or steal/trash stuff...and I always lock up when done.

All I can say is: WHAT THE FREAKIN MESS??!?!? :D

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yeah!i've some people that show up for the RP on my forum...ho and yesterday,my "boss"that i will have almost no job for the summer...

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Guest Julius Quasar

They're scaling back my hours at the Water Park this Summer...this blasted economy! :)

You'd think with this heat, we'd see more $$$

but I guess not :/

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You got spore? Same here! :fox: *Stupid smile*

Although, Its a really fun game, create plenty of stuff, although its missing some content I think, overall its alright. I have'nt played it in a while though... Er...

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Wow, I know this is weird, but I want to hug you all. xD Really, nobody says these kinds of things to me in real life.

Ah, but things are definitely better now. My sister and I opened presents early since we'd be gone and we actually DID get the things we asked for! (SO RARE!!!)

I got Spore (WHOO!) Mario Kart Wii (WHOOHOO!!!) and Wii Play (erm...whoo? My brother wanted that :katt:) But when I opened them, I screamed. I screamed LOUD. We're installing Spore when we get back from NY and stuff, but we've already played MK Wii and Wii play.

I LOVE SPOCK!! Yes, we saw Star Trek! (And it was amazing, just like everybody said!) And I believe that I have the right to say that Spock is unbelievably sexy. xDDD We saw it cuz my aunt, dad, and grandparents are all Trekkies, and even though I said it wouldn't turn me into one I think that I might...*gulp* actually be wrong. Must run in the family, lol!

I've seen a few Voyager episodes and new Generation, and several of the originals...but none of the other movies or anything. Blarg, what the heck. :3 It's gonna make me a lot nerdier, ha!

My favorite aunt is here visiting from Michigan, and we were playing softball...I hit a few over the wall, and she said I had a great arm! Made me feel great, lawl.

So life is good. :P I do hope that it stays that way, though I doubt it...

*Hugs*

Have a nice birthday!

I've got Spore to. Great game, but it gets a little repetative after a while.

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Well, that girl I met on that dating website was just leading me on..she's nothing more than a "witch with a capital 'B' "....

she's blocked my emails, and ignored the phone call(s) so....whatever.

...guess I'll be alone and miserable the rest of my friggin' life....

maybe I should've offed myself last year...I dunno....

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Well, that girl I met on that dating website was just leading me on..she's nothing more than a "witch with a capital 'B' "....

she's blocked my emails, and ignored the phone call(s) so....whatever.

...guess I'll be alone and miserable the rest of my friggin' life....

maybe I should've offed myself last year...I dunno....

ahh don't worry Julius I'm sure you'll find someone if not look at it this way at least you can Focus on one thing instead of your wife.
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well don't just give up!

keep looking!

i hear in"the news"that most people meet on the beach.

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ahh don't worry Julius I'm sure you'll find someone if not look at it this way at least you can Focus on one thing instead of your wife.

thanks, Kursed

well don't just give up!

keep looking!

i hear in"the news"that most people meet on the beach.

thanks, tyler....but the beach girls of Cali are too stuck up...

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ahhhhhhh!

i get it now!

i also hear that same thing about the mountians...

on ward! to adventure!

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Well, that girl I met on that dating website was just leading me on..she's nothing more than a "witch with a capital 'B' "....

she's blocked my emails, and ignored the phone call(s) so....whatever.

...guess I'll be alone and miserable the rest of my friggin' life....

maybe I should've offed myself last year...I dunno....

There is someone out there for everyone, and some day or another you will meet one of those persons. Keep faith.

In the meantime, look at the bright sides of life.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jHPOzQzk9Qo

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