Guest Julius Quasar Posted July 17, 2009 Share Posted July 17, 2009 My life feels like it's going no where. I"m trying to go to college this year, but I have 6 weeks before classes start at Internation Business College (Fort Wayne, Indiana). I need like $250, but I'm broke. I had a job from March 31 - June 13 this year, but I got laid off because of the economy and spent all my money on food and car maintenance (gas, brake fluid - my car needs new brake fluid every week because it's so old). I don't know what to do...life is so hard. I hope and pray that I can go to college and get my life going. Wish me luck. Good luck, Gamecuber 459...sorry to hear of your trouble, I hope things work out for you. Oh, Sideways, I'm so sorry...it sounds like she's having a terrible time in that trailer, I really do wish I could help you. me too, sideways...I'm sorry. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Star Fox Runner Posted July 18, 2009 Share Posted July 18, 2009 I want out of my life. I lost the love of my life for the past six years and it haunts me, I cannot stop thinking about her, I miss her because I still love her, I can't find the energy to get over it. She told me she doesn't love me anymore. She's being manipulated by her father who is a deadbeat and she lives in a scum town and has some shady friends. We used to be great. I'm trying to get on with my life but it's hard. I am thinking about the Air National Guard, which will take me away for a few months and maybe I'll find someone new - OR finally have the skills to become an adult, and finally be able to show her that I could give her a place to live. I know deep down she does love me, but she's too mentally unstable to say that at this point. Ever since she's moved in with him she's become more and more unstable. Her father is overcontrolling and does not allow her to do the things she wants, they have two dogs, 1 a puppy which he wanted because the other one is old, and she is forced 80% of the time to take care of it! He yells at her constantly, they live in a trailer, and rent a couple of bigscreen hdtvs. Priorities, anyone? I don't know what to say, I can't think of anything, and anything I do think of might sound insensitive. All I can say is that you have my sympathies. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest krystal08 Posted July 18, 2009 Share Posted July 18, 2009 Sideways......ho gosh i sorry to heard that.... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Julius Quasar Posted July 19, 2009 Share Posted July 19, 2009 TODAY, I JUST FINISHED READING "TWILIGHT" BY STEPHANIE MEYER! W00T! :D Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Icy Posted July 19, 2009 Share Posted July 19, 2009 Ack... Agh... Get me outta here... Twilight, ugh.... Um... Maybe I should read it? Um, not much new here, I downloaded mIRC yesterday so I could finally chat at another forum. Yep, not much. =P Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Asper Sarnoff Posted July 19, 2009 Share Posted July 19, 2009 Thanks, SF Runner...but now I know that some person out there would want to kill somebody because of what they think. I've gotten kinda jumpy lately, mostly because I deleted the email without blocking the person who sent it. About going vegetarian: Ha, I'm gonna have to drop them soon enough. :3 My stupid mom isn't helping- she made turkey for dinner today, and I refused to eat it, so she ate it instead. She knows that I'm going vegetarian, yet she doesn't care! My friends asked me why out of curiosity, and I said this (in order, with 1 being my top reason): 1. I love animals, and the things people do to butcher them is just sick. 2. Even though I'm just one person, I'll make a difference to at least one animal out there. 3. One day, while taking a chicken out of the oven, I smelled something terrible, like an artificial and rubbery smell. Lots of other vegetarians noticed this. 4. The sheer amount of organic grocery markets supporting this. I'm glad to hear that I'm not alone. 5. It gives me a chance to cook for myself more often. I made vegetarian chili last night! Oh, and we got Oscar's ashes. They came in a wooden box with his name plated on top, and inside a navy velvet bag that had "Until we meet at The Rainbow Bridge" stitched onto it, with the "Rainbow Bridge" poem and a fake (but pretty) blue rose dappled with plastic dew drops. Kinda corny, but still heartfelt. This is weird, but his box and bag smelled good. It reminded me of him. Anyway, the vets said added another thing that could have happened- he was beaten by a human being. They said it was most likely a car-crash but that somebody could have attacked him too. Why would somebody ever do that to a cat? Do people actually have that much hate and murder in their hearts? You would have to be a truly terrible person to do that to a kitten. if that's what happened, then the world really is full of hate. Ohh my... You've been going trough a lot of harsh stuff lately. Keep hanging on, you've got my, and all the other members of this site, full support and sympathy. What you say almost makes me feel bad for being a devoted car enthusiast and predator/carnivore. My Dad had surgery today, had to replace a tendon in his right thumb. He came back a wreck because the drugs he was given were wearing off, and we didn't have his pain killers just yet, he's got them now, but he's not gonna be able to do some things for himself for about a week. And boy is it going to be a rough, not just for him, but for me and mom too. Best of luck to you and your dad! I'm sick on my dad's idiot clients who either are too cheap or deadbeats who can't/won't pay their bills (my dad is a lawyer), so they dangle pieces of meat in front of me, offering empty care packages to me by offering my dad to give me a job, claiming they 'know someone'... they do this to try to weasel out of paying a bill, those nosy pricks ask my dad a million personal questions he shouldn't be answering, and he tells them about me, and my unemployment status, (or more recently, my waiting to be hired by the post office), then they say "Oh, I can get your son a job..." (or more recently "I can get your son hired by the post office, my friend is a manager at....)" that happened last week, an a****** client, this nosy, awful Chinese woman, said "Oh, I have a friend who is a high ranking manager at the post office across town, he will hire your son..." she gave us the phone number, and I called it, and this rude bitch on the other end answered, saying "You have the wrong number", and my parents act like that was my fault, even though it's not!!! The client gave my dad the wrong number. We haven't heard from that stupid old hag since, and I noticed she gave that empty offer just before my dad was about to bill her for the work he did for her. It felt like 2002 all over again. That recent crap from that client regarding the post office, was just like what had been happening since 2002 (except these were job offers for places other than the post office, since I hadn't applied for it or passed the postal service exam back then)....I'm sick of these empty promises, and my stupid parents getting on my case...I will move out, and I'll do it on my own, believe me, I've been trying since 2001, but it's not easy...my dad's clients can rot in hell, and so can my parents...I don't need their charity...my parents need to get out of my life, before I cut theirs short. sorry to rant, but I'm just sick of my life... I really don't know what to say Julius. I think you have to get away from your parents for a while, move out and do things your way. And whatever you do, about that last sentence you said there, don't go that way. There are many people who care about you. Keep hanging on. I want out of my life. I lost the love of my life for the past six years and it haunts me, I cannot stop thinking about her, I miss her because I still love her, I can't find the energy to get over it. She told me she doesn't love me anymore. She's being manipulated by her father who is a deadbeat and she lives in a scum town and has some shady friends. We used to be great. I'm trying to get on with my life but it's hard. I am thinking about the Air National Guard, which will take me away for a few months and maybe I'll find someone new - OR finally have the skills to become an adult, and finally be able to show her that I could give her a place to live. I know deep down she does love me, but she's too mentally unstable to say that at this point. Ever since she's moved in with him she's become more and more unstable. Her father is overcontrolling and does not allow her to do the things she wants, they have two dogs, 1 a puppy which he wanted because the other one is old, and she is forced 80% of the time to take care of it! He yells at her constantly, they live in a trailer, and rent a couple of bigscreen hdtvs. Priorities, anyone? Feel for you there. Do you want me to go to the US and go all terminator over his a**? About myself: Been to Scottland, had a great time. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ARWINGCOMMANDER 3987 Posted July 19, 2009 Share Posted July 19, 2009 *bleeding angrily from the mouth* Just when I thought my rage had subsided. EDIT: Forget it, it seems I can't control my temper anywhere. I'm just a disgruntled, defensive, patriotic and partly autistic Canadian lunatic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Julius Quasar Posted July 19, 2009 Share Posted July 19, 2009 Ack... Agh... Get me outta here... Twilight, ugh.... Um... Maybe I should read it? "Twilight", both the book and movie, are more for girls I really don't know what to say Julius. I think you have to get away from your parents for a while, move out and do things your way. And whatever you do, about that last sentence you said there, don't go that way. There are many people who care about you. Keep hanging on. About myself: Been to Scottland, had a great time. Thanks, Asper, I'm working on getting out of my parents' hell-hole of a home, yeah...I hope to be out by this Christmas... Glad you had fun in Scotland! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest krystal08 Posted July 19, 2009 Share Posted July 19, 2009 "Twilight", both the book and movie, are more for girls yeah,you can say that again,i saw it on a boat(believe me,if i had the choice i 'd never see it)and i just wanted to throw myself into water! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Star Fox Runner Posted July 19, 2009 Share Posted July 19, 2009 yeah,you can say that again,i saw it on a boat(believe me,if i had the choice i 'd never see it)and i just wanted to throw myself into water! ROFL, I've never watched or read it, never will. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest krystal08 Posted July 19, 2009 Share Posted July 19, 2009 ROFL, I've never watched or read it, never will. good thing! hey,what's new in my life,i've just created a awesome forum,if you wana see the link,go to the good topic fo that!ITS A NO REAL RULES FORUM! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Star Fox Runner Posted July 20, 2009 Share Posted July 20, 2009 Everything went to hell at my house last night. My mom was in a bad mood from being under the gun at work, and the printer wasn't working right for her, she then noticed that I had broken a small latch on the printer, this was not the reason the printer was broken as that had happened 2 months ago, but she started going crazy at me for being irresponsible and clumsy, and not telling her these things, then an argument sparked and I was yelling at her for not listening to me as usual. Then she threatened to "kick my ass" if I didn't shut up and leave her alone. Then something snapped and I had a mental meltdown. 17 years of suppressed anger came rushing to the surface. And you can probably guess where that went. Long story short, a lot of people were close to tears last night. Its all blown over by this morning, but I feel different, I think I need to get some distance from my mom for a couple of days, but I don't see that happening because I don't have anywhere to stay. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Julius Quasar Posted July 20, 2009 Share Posted July 20, 2009 Everything went to hell at my house last night. My mom was in a bad mood from being under the gun at work, and the printer wasn't working right for her, she then noticed that I had broken a small latch on the printer, this was not the reason the printer was broken as that had happened 2 months ago, but she started going crazy at me for being irresponsible and clumsy, and not telling her these things, then an argument sparked and I was yelling at her for not listening to me as usual. Then she threatened to "kick my ass" if I didn't shut up and leave her alone. Then something snapped and I had a mental meltdown. 17 years of suppressed anger came rushing to the surface. And you can probably guess where that went. Long story short, a lot of people were close to tears last night. Its all blown over by this morning, but I feel different, I think I need to get some distance from my mom for a couple of days, but I don't see that happening because I don't have anywhere to stay. You got my sympathy, Star Fox Runner, I have been (and still am) in your situation. I hate my family with a vengeance... and like you, I got nowhere to get away or stay away from them....It's been so bad, then and now, I once got arrested on domestic disturbance charges a long time ago for fighting with my family (don't wanna go into details, other than the charges didn't stick, thank God...) this is the 3rd time I've had to retype this post, as my stupid crappy computer keeps crashing on me :wink: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ARWINGCOMMANDER 3987 Posted July 20, 2009 Share Posted July 20, 2009 I know how you feel as well Julius. Today I got a message on YouTube from some a@#hole who called me the n-word. I marked it as spam, do this to him for the racial slur. I'm really worried about my bad temper. :wink: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Star Fox Runner Posted July 20, 2009 Share Posted July 20, 2009 You got my sympathy, Star Fox Runner, I have been (and still am) in your situation. I hate my family with a vengeance... Thanks Julius, but the difference between you and me is that I don't hate my family, we just have problems that have gone unspoken seeing how I have suppressed everything for 17 years. And everything just came to a head. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Julius Quasar Posted July 20, 2009 Share Posted July 20, 2009 I know how you feel as well Julius. Today I got a message on YouTube from some a@#hole who called me the n-word. I marked it as spam, do this to him for the racial slur. I'm really worried about my bad temper. that is messed up, man...sorry to hear that... Thanks Julius, but the difference between you and me is that I don't hate my family, we just have problems that have gone unspoken seeing how I have suppressed everything for 17 years. And everything just came to a head. oh, I see...sorry... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ARWINGCOMMANDER 3987 Posted July 20, 2009 Share Posted July 20, 2009 Thanks Julius. Most days at this age I feel like Harvey, if you know who I'm talking about. *flips a coin* Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Chiro-Chan Posted July 20, 2009 Share Posted July 20, 2009 "Twilight", both the book and movie, are more for girls I read the back cover of "Twilight", and that alone made me not want to read it. I mean, if other girls like it, that's fine by me, but the whole 'lol sparkly vampires and teenage drama' thing was enough of a turn off for me. : | In other news, today I purchased Team Fortress 2! And on top of that, I'm going to Seattle to check out an art college there! I'm so excited! x3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Julius Quasar Posted July 20, 2009 Share Posted July 20, 2009 In other news, today I purchased Team Fortress 2! And on top of that, I'm going to Seattle to check out an art college there! I'm so excited! x3 Have fun! as for Twilight, I agree with you...I only got the book 'cause my sister gave it to me for Christmas. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kursed Posted July 20, 2009 Share Posted July 20, 2009 I read the back cover of "Twilight", and that alone made me not want to read it. I mean, if other girls like it, that's fine by me, but the whole 'lol sparkly vampires and teenage drama' thing was enough of a turn off for me. : | In other news, today I purchased Team Fortress 2! And on top of that, I'm going to Seattle to check out an art college there! I'm so excited! x3 I hate vampires PEROID their soo ugly... I'd rather marry Wolf than marry a Vampire. ,but on the other hand have Fun Chiro... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kursed Posted July 20, 2009 Share Posted July 20, 2009 Glad you had fun Catwings Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ARWINGCOMMANDER 3987 Posted July 21, 2009 Share Posted July 21, 2009 Well, if you don't like Edward, there's always Jacob. xD The werewolf kid, woohoo! And as for sparkly vampires, I really do hate that. Vampires don't sparkle, kiddos. They suck your blood and are basically gaunt, sallow and bony night creatures. ._. I read it because it was recommended to me, but I have to admit that I enjoyed it a little. Then again, I'm 15, so it may just be an age thing. Reminds me of the wicked witch stereotype, which was originally created to demonize your grandma!! I'm in a camp too, it's to help me socialize better with other people. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
evilwaffles Posted July 21, 2009 Share Posted July 21, 2009 (Yells random curse words at my computer) I don't know why... but my computer hates me. It would rather blow it's components out then work with me. I had everything fine with it for about three weeks... that's when my sound card driver decided to go on strike and say "Stuff you man" and not work for me, and now my graphics card has basically told me the same thing and cannot even run Counter Strike 1.6... and I had no problems with that before (just as I got Prototype as well just before the card... quit, Prototype did not contribute, it happened while I was typing on Word). If you thought things couldn't get any worse... when I went to load up my computer today, it refused to go past the Vista start-up screen (the one with the logo and the loading bar beneath it). (Continues ranting at the broken computer) Well I am back at school (curses) and I thought that the teachers would be reasonable enough to let us go without any assignments... I was right for a while... until I went to my IT class... three tasks and two weeks to do them... C++... that is all I understand from the assignment information sheet, I think I have to script something, then use that for two other things... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest krystal08 Posted July 21, 2009 Share Posted July 21, 2009 start to work A LOT!day,evening and week-end!!!damn!!a least i got this evening free! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Julius Quasar Posted July 23, 2009 Share Posted July 23, 2009 I've been under some major stress lately 'cause they're laying off people at where I work, and I had to take several days of unpaid leave 'cause business is down, my car has broken down, and my father's health is failing... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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